I Did It Again ……..

I did it again…

I let my brain run wild. I turned one experience into a huge story—one filled with all kinds of terrible, negative meanings (I’m really good at that, by the way).

And then you know what happened? I cried. I felt broken. Grief showed up for something that, as it turns out, wasn’t even true. I was miserable. Honestly, it’s been 24 hours, and I still feel it.

Here’s the thing about grief—it doesn’t just live in the obvious places. It shows up in the stories we create, in the meaning we assign, in the way our mind tries to make sense of something painful as fast as possible.

So now, I’m observing myself. I’m letting the discomfort be there, instead of fighting it. And I’m doing the work to help myself move through it.

I’m writing. I’m reading. I’m centering myself.

What I’m not doing is reacting. As much as I want to, I’m choosing not to. Instead, I’m sitting with it. Getting curious.

Asking myself questions that help slow everything down:

* What if I do nothing?

* What will happen if I do nothing?

* Is doing nothing the right action?

* Where are my boundaries?

* Are my boundaries helpful?

* What do I want to have happen right now?

* Are those wants helpful in this moment?

* Can I let this be?

* What is the best possible outcome?

* How can I help create a better result?

I may not have all the answers—and that’s okay. This is what self-coaching looks like inside of grief. It’s not about having it all figured out. It’s about staying with yourself long enough to respond instead of react.

Right now, what I know is this: the best thing I can do is not take action until I’ve worked through what I’m feeling. That’s how I take care of myself. That’s how I take care of the situation.

And yes, I’ll make mistakes along the way. That’s part of being human.

But I also know this—I’m someone who knows how to find my way through.

If this feels familiar to you, try this today:

Pause before you react and choose just one of these questions. Sit with it for a few minutes and notice what shifts.

And if you’re finding yourself stuck in these loops often, this is exactly the work I do with my clients—learning how to move through grief without letting it take over your thoughts and decisions.

You can reply to this email and tell me what came up for you, or reach out if you want support doing this work together.

Xo, Camille ✨